MY LIFE HAS A YAHOO BOY
I wanted her to look up at me but I think she was drown in her thought. What could my daughter be thinking of??I wish I could read her mind so to ease her pain, I wish I could make her pain go away, I wanted to tell her that I’m never going to leave even if I’mnot sure if I’m going to last longer.I feel like I’m dead already.
I feel like I’ll be going anytime soon but I still have the faith that no one will take my place. I feel so weak and lifeless. I just want to be strong for my children, for my daughter.She’s going into an adult world, I want to be there for her. I’m going to fight for my life, for my children. I’m not leaving themI couldn’t stop crying, I’m the one who knows how it feels to be in this much pain.
I wish I could explain, but it’s unexplainable.Oh my poor girl! She’s too emotional. Even if I tell her I’ll be Fine, she wouldn’t believe me.A day without her isn’t going to be easy not to talk of forever. Who’s goingto take care of my children? My boy is too young to understand this and Sholape is too young to experience this much hardship.I’ve always imagined me not been around them for a long time.
We would talk about how much they were going to suffer and who will take care of them. Sholape will start crying already, saying; “mummy it’s never going to happen”.I hope she doesn’t think our little imagination will come to past. My poor daughter! I thought to myself.I watched as she buried her head in my chest sobbing uncontrollably, my auntyhelped my mum up, she staggered at that cause, and the support was doubled.
.My uncle joined in assisting her up. I started to ask myself when did my mum become someone that cannot stand on her own??She used to be strong, the word strong is now a once upon a time thing in her life.This woman standing in front of me isn’t my mother that I use to know. My aunt’s voice got me out of my thought when she said; “Sholape, we’ll keep you informed”.Gosh! That statement travelled down my spine.
Something in me triggered, I felt like my whole world is crumbling around me.Something isn’t right but I don’t know what it is. At this time, I was thinking, my aunt and her siblings were out of sight. Immediately, I took to my heels.Thank God I found them. If I wasn’t out early they would have been far gone.
They were about entering the cab when I called out Mummy! She turned back to look at me, I wonder why she didn’t say Goodbye when she was leaving.I went closer to give her a hug not caring if she’s weak for it or not. Something kept telling me that was my last hug. She held on to me also, Maybe she was having the same thought. At this moment, I was the only onecrying not her.She looked like she had accepted her faith.
FOR THE CONTINUATION VIST
http://mhaxiloaded.blogspot.com
I feel like I’ll be going anytime soon but I still have the faith that no one will take my place. I feel so weak and lifeless. I just want to be strong for my children, for my daughter.She’s going into an adult world, I want to be there for her. I’m going to fight for my life, for my children. I’m not leaving themI couldn’t stop crying, I’m the one who knows how it feels to be in this much pain.
I wish I could explain, but it’s unexplainable.Oh my poor girl! She’s too emotional. Even if I tell her I’ll be Fine, she wouldn’t believe me.A day without her isn’t going to be easy not to talk of forever. Who’s goingto take care of my children? My boy is too young to understand this and Sholape is too young to experience this much hardship.I’ve always imagined me not been around them for a long time.
We would talk about how much they were going to suffer and who will take care of them. Sholape will start crying already, saying; “mummy it’s never going to happen”.I hope she doesn’t think our little imagination will come to past. My poor daughter! I thought to myself.I watched as she buried her head in my chest sobbing uncontrollably, my auntyhelped my mum up, she staggered at that cause, and the support was doubled.
.My uncle joined in assisting her up. I started to ask myself when did my mum become someone that cannot stand on her own??She used to be strong, the word strong is now a once upon a time thing in her life.This woman standing in front of me isn’t my mother that I use to know. My aunt’s voice got me out of my thought when she said; “Sholape, we’ll keep you informed”.Gosh! That statement travelled down my spine.
Something in me triggered, I felt like my whole world is crumbling around me.Something isn’t right but I don’t know what it is. At this time, I was thinking, my aunt and her siblings were out of sight. Immediately, I took to my heels.Thank God I found them. If I wasn’t out early they would have been far gone.
They were about entering the cab when I called out Mummy! She turned back to look at me, I wonder why she didn’t say Goodbye when she was leaving.I went closer to give her a hug not caring if she’s weak for it or not. Something kept telling me that was my last hug. She held on to me also, Maybe she was having the same thought. At this moment, I was the only onecrying not her.She looked like she had accepted her faith.
FOR THE CONTINUATION VIST
http://mhaxiloaded.blogspot.com
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